une Wonder Life – chapter 2 奇葩女子 第二章

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Last time I shared about my first experience in craft market. After that time I had been in various craft market, from only one white cloth to full decoration tools in my suitcase. I used almost 40 minutes per time to decorate my booth. Review my diary in those first two years.

 I wrote down “I remember the first time showing up at market with my brand – une. I wasn’t good at displaying the goods that time and came to the market alone. I was nervous in tremble hands, plus the cold weather, I felt horrible at all. But now, I can attend every market alone with full confident. What a nice experience!! Improving my decorating and selling skill, mostly improving my skill of creating goods in this entire year. “ – Dect 2013

Haha, but now when I look back it still looks awful. 

While I was having good time during the craft market time but in that time I was not confident and didn’t 100% sure and doubt did I have the ability to do all of those creative work?

Because I am not art student and never be in art school. I had been working in various works, but I still doubt my abilities, even I can draw with Illustrator or Photoshop. 

I did blame myself why I don’t take a normal job to be engineer and afraid maybe I would never find a suitable job for whole life. I also envy my friends their stable works and high salaries.

I still remember that my dad once said ” you have been to college, why you do want to do the work that no need this high education background?” While I didn’t take any job and do craft works, my mom always asked me to learn something such as hairdresser skill or take the government job, etc. 

I know I am not that person who will love to do the same thing all the time. Once I get into this kind of work then I will suffer for my whole life time. Somehow I am a stubborn person and know this is going to be my own path. My willpower insist and support myself to keep doing creative works till now.

So whether your work is related to what you have learned in school or not, never doubt your abilities. I might chose wrong answer sometimes, it was cause we weren’t not quite know enough ourself.

And always remember one important thing. You must be responsible for yourself for your whole life. Family or friends they cannot take full responsibility for your future. The world changes so fast, live with happiness and present your powerful talent is the most important job you should do.

to be continued…. chapter 3

上回第一篇章提及8年前是我人生第一次擺攤的經驗,之後也曾參與多場大大小小的創意市集,從一開始攤位上僅有一塊白布的陳設,到行李箱幾乎塞滿大大小小的陳列物,每次幾乎都需要花40多分鐘在陳列,也在這1、2年內,提升自己的陳列能力,雖然現在回顧之前的照片還是很想笑,但至少此刻回顧並與8年前的自己相比,現在的能力又提升的不少。

7年前日記的某一片段:

依然記得第一次參加市集的緊張感,隻身前往陌生的台北,首次公開販售自己做的商品。寒冷的天氣與緊張的心情,導致全身顫抖,手抖到不行,擺設技巧也爛到爆炸。不過經過一連串的經驗洗禮,古語說的好”不經一事不長一智”,現在已經慢慢學會詮釋品牌的感覺,也漸漸能駕馭每次的攤位佈置擺設。經過一年後,現在回顧之前的陳設佈置,真的會想笑到倒地,不過也很開心這一年學了很多經驗與技巧。 – Dec 2013

日記裡也紀錄了在擺攤的期間,遇過很多貴人與來自不同國籍或令人暖心的人與故事 :))) 但說實話那時候的我還不是非常有自信與百分之百相信自己的能力。學生時期由於我對化學有著奇特的熱愛,加上家庭給我觀念覺得好像念理工科未來出入發展比較好。然而在我出國當交換學生後,人生似乎開始有了新的想法,我轉換跑道做和所學完全無相關的工作,數度轉換不同工作,在這過程中一直覺得自己沒有特殊專長,即使我會用AI或PS等繪圖軟體,但都不足以強大到能獨當一面,數度懷疑自我能力且非常掙扎在自己不是藝術專科的學生而感到自卑。

也曾責怪自己為何不好好找個工程師的工作賺錢,擔心自己是不是永遠找不到自己的人生方向,找不到合適的職業,同時又很矛盾地羨慕同學的高薪工作。我還記得那時我爸曾經說過:妳都讀到大學了,為什麼要去做高中生畢業就能做的工作?我也記得我媽在我沒工作的時候數度一直叫我去學一技之長或是考公職人員。那時候的我生活過的非常不開心,覺得壓力很大,但自己內心始終知道自己似乎不適合走正規的工作,因為我的古怪個性與思維邏輯絕對無法符合一般的公司。

好在我耳根子是滿硬的,很堅持這是我絕對不會放棄的路,堅韌的意志力與源源不絕的想法,讓自己持續創作到現在。

無論你的工作是不是與所學有沒有關聯,都不要懷疑自己的能力,有的時候那只是階段性選擇的問題,也許是因為你還不夠了解自己或外在壓力的關係。如果你所學的專長與你的能力工作相符,那非常幸運,你很早就知道自己的方向。

但是永遠要記得一個重點,你必須為你的人生選擇負責,家人、朋友,他們無法替你的未來承擔,世界變化如此之快,能順應環境生存的人才會活得快樂。

奇葩女字的第三篇章待續….

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